This Wednesday proved to be yet another day that would test my mettle. We are in the midst of a pandemic and we are all worried about our own safety at that of our loved ones.
Yet even with what feels like a huge weight I will always choose and manage to be optimistic and continue to shoulder through. I would like to believe I am one of those people who rise to the occasion when I get slapped down, but maybe I just haven’t been knocked down enough to change my attitude, right?
Well, Wednesday afternoon was my test to see if I was going to walk the walk. Like many people my husband has been working from home for the last several weeks. I usually don’t see him surface from his basement office until about 6pm each night. Around 5ish on Wednesady he walked into our bedroom and shut the door behind him, in such a manner that alerted me to the level of seriousness.
He announced he just lost his job. Not a furlough, but a turn all your stuff in and don’t let the door hit you on the ass on the way out, loss.
I sat and stared at him in disbelief. I asked him if he was okay and then I did the only thing I knew to do, I burst into laughter. Seriously, I have no idea why, maybe is was nervousness or maybe it was just, hey yeah why wouldn’t I think that one more thing would dog pile us.
Two years ago before my growth journey started I would have flipped out at the idea of no one in our house being employed, let alone in the middle of a pandemic. You can’t make this up, so I think laughter was my most appropriate response. At this moment I realize how much I have grown emotionally; as a woman, wife, mother, friend, and entrepreneur.
I feel okay, and maybe I am naive; however at this moment I am comfortable with my naivety. We are no worse off than any of the millions of people who recently lost jobs, have family members who are ill, or have loved ones on the front lines of dealing with this pandemic.
It would be insulting to all of the people who are really struggling for me to feel sorry for myself. We are all healthy and together; we are blessed. And while I would prefer to not work and to continue to focus on my family, we do what we need to do to support our family. I am still very employable should I need to do that. We are team and you do what you need to do to keep things moving.
And while some, including myself, might have thought this would have been the straw that broke the camel’s back, it turned out to actually be the furthest thing from the truth.
If anything I feel like the song Tubthumping from the English rock band Chumbawamba . It is become my internal theme song the last few years. And depending upon your age you may not have ever heard of this song that was published in 1997. Pay attention to the refrain as that is what will resonates with everyone these days.
So, on Wednesday I realized I have become a better version of myself; and I wouldn’t trade a moment of my life, even the last two turbulent years for anything. I have learned that no matter what struggles may come my way, in whatever form, I can and will handle them. I am fierce and will not be f**ked with because…….I get knocked down, but I get up again
You are never gonna keep me down……… I will always choose to see the good in people, the silver lining, and opportunities at every turn and still get where I need to be.
So put a smile on your face, dance around your house to Tubthumping and spread some joy to those around you and have an awesome day.